Order Only: Private message to Tonks

[alt_bill]

God, what do I say?

I'm not sorry I kissed you. I hope it won't make you angry that I've been wanting to do that for a long time. But I'm dead sorry that I sprang it on you like that. And with, er, so little finesse. God. I've been trying to...how do I say this...work my way up to being more honest with you about how I really feel. After mulling things for over a year I had just decided I wanted to screw up my supposedly Gryffindor courage and make it clear I'd like to see you on more than a friendship basis. But every time I came over to Laszlo's, you were either busy with customers or Ellie was hovering, ready to take an order, or Charlie was there, too, having a beer, or Sinbad was literally lying at my feet. Which made things just a little awkward, you know? The right moment just never came along.

Then I went and bolluxed things up good and all.

Anyway. There it is. I suppose when I see you next (well, not at the Order meeting; that would be even MORE awkward) we can talk about...hell, I don't know. What you want

Charlie said you preferred no apologies even if I'm dying to give you one.

So, since I want to do what you want....let's start again.

Comments

[alt_nymphadora]

Don't flog yourself about it, Bill.

It's been a horrible fortnight you've had, I think, and being out of sorts is perfectly understandable.


I hope you all made it to the ceremony in time? We cut it very close for you, didn't we?

[alt_bill]

All right. Fresh start. ('Out of sorts.' What a tactful way of putting it.)

We did, yes. Apparition is a wonderful thing. Mum's not happy about being here, but she's making a brave attempt at hiding it. Charlie and I are both doing our best to give her lots of attention and squire her about. This is the first social event she's been to since...well, since the Ministry party.

Thought the meeting went well, all things considered. I was really happy that if I had to go through that rite, at least we got some useful information out of it. Maybe even critical. It helped to all out our heads together. Although I really hope we'll come up with a solution which won't require us to murder anyone.

Maybe we can. If it's possible, I'm sure this group will find it.

Also pleased about Alice becoming co-head. Although...did you have hopes for yourself? Or Remus?

[alt_nymphadora]

I think Alice will be brilliant. I trust her completely, and I think she'll do as good a job as any of us could of keeping this mad, rather fractious lot in order.

Did I hear that you and Molly are going to the Ball tonight? Only, I wanted to be sure you knew we've closed up the beer garden for the night. Officially, we're off showing loyal at the faire. Ellie, Bea, and I have been, at any rate, enjoying the crowds and all the stickiest treats we can find. Not sure about the blokes.

[alt_bill]

We are a mad and fractious lot, aren't we? Sometimes it's a wonder we get as much done as we do.

Yes, we're at the Ball (ducked into a corner for a quick scribble, while Mum's off in the loo uh, powdering her nose). More later when I'm not trying to jockey my way through the social grindylows.

[alt_bill]

Bit more excitement tonight than I expected. Although nothing, thank Merlin, like

I'm knackered, so I'll catch up with you later. Hope to be by the beer garden in the next few days.