"Knackered" is a good enough way to put it. Two and a half weeks is apparently long enough to lose the knack of twelve-hour days; I wound up skipping supper and falling face down on my bunk the minute I was relieved. At least I took my boots off first.
I'm glad you're feeling better. And that Albus was right. I hope you and Ron can work your way around to being all right with each other again, but knowing Ron I think it'll take a bit of time -- look up 'stubborn' in the dictionary, it's got his picture there for it. So don't push too hard, yeah? I'll give him a bit to calm down some and then I'll try writing to him and see where his head's at.
I enjoyed the other night a lot -- that baby is the happiest child I've ever met. (All right, I might just be remembering Ginny at that age -- any baby would look relaxed next to her!) Just you wait, the minute Mum starts working there and spending more time around Bea, she's going to start dropping hints like anvils on us about grandchildren.
I really hope she doesn't. I don't have the heart to tell her that even if I did feel like I could tell her about things with Dree and Em without her going spare, I've thought about it a lot and ... I just don't know that I could have kids right now. Not with everything. I know Mum and Dad held off on joining the Order proper when we were all younger because of us, and I know they changed their minds when Mum's brothers got killed, and I guess that's a good enough reason, but ...
I've just been thinking a bit, these past few weeks, I guess. About what would have happened if Mum or Dad had been exposed as a member of the Order when we were younger. Or got killed. And I'm willing to take that risk for myself, but I don't think I could do that to a child. And even if I could, or even if there wasn't the Order to think of ... this isn't the sort of world I think I'd want to bring a kid up in.
But then I think that, and I look at Little Miss Sunshine and think, was it wrong for Remus and Tonks to have her? Is it wrong for them to keep up their work in the Order now that they do? And then I'm back around to "it's a good thing Bea's got such a large family, in case anything happens", and then I realise I'm getting mopey and go do something else to take my mind off things.
I envy the rest of the Order sometimes, you know? They remember the way things used to be. Before. I don't, really. Just a little bit, and it's all stories and what I remember from being a kid.
And you're welcome. For everything.
I'll set up the board again tonight or tomorrow. Your turn to play white, I think.
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I'm glad you're feeling better. And that Albus was right. I hope you and Ron can work your way around to being all right with each other again, but knowing Ron I think it'll take a bit of time -- look up 'stubborn' in the dictionary, it's got his picture there for it. So don't push too hard, yeah? I'll give him a bit to calm down some and then I'll try writing to him and see where his head's at.
I enjoyed the other night a lot -- that baby is the happiest child I've ever met. (All right, I might just be remembering Ginny at that age -- any baby would look relaxed next to her!) Just you wait, the minute Mum starts working there and spending more time around Bea, she's going to start dropping hints like anvils on us about grandchildren.
I really hope she doesn't. I don't have the heart to tell her that even if I did feel like I could tell her about things with Dree and Em without her going spare, I've thought about it a lot and ... I just don't know that I could have kids right now. Not with everything. I know Mum and Dad held off on joining the Order proper when we were all younger because of us, and I know they changed their minds when Mum's brothers got killed, and I guess that's a good enough reason, but ...
I've just been thinking a bit, these past few weeks, I guess. About what would have happened if Mum or Dad had been exposed as a member of the Order when we were younger. Or got killed. And I'm willing to take that risk for myself, but I don't think I could do that to a child. And even if I could, or even if there wasn't the Order to think of ... this isn't the sort of world I think I'd want to bring a kid up in.
But then I think that, and I look at Little Miss Sunshine and think, was it wrong for Remus and Tonks to have her? Is it wrong for them to keep up their work in the Order now that they do? And then I'm back around to "it's a good thing Bea's got such a large family, in case anything happens", and then I realise I'm getting mopey and go do something else to take my mind off things.
I envy the rest of the Order sometimes, you know? They remember the way things used to be. Before. I don't, really. Just a little bit, and it's all stories and what I remember from being a kid.
And you're welcome. For everything.
I'll set up the board again tonight or tomorrow. Your turn to play white, I think.