There's a huge part of me that hopes -- if you have to go through with it -- that this is the thing that lets us crack the problem once and for all. I can't think of a more fitting tribute to Dad than that would be.

And I don't care what it is you see. Or rather, I won't change my mind based on what it is you see. You can't protective-older-brother your way out of this one: if you have to hold on to that knowledge, so should I.