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I can't stop thinking about the lunch I had with Percy yesterday.
He nattered on and on and ON about being on the Council, and his Important New Job, which sounds mostly like quill pushing to me. I dunno...usually he spends at least part of our Wednesday lunches trying to impress me, but it felt a little different this time. Like he wasn't thinking so much about impressing me as convincing himself.
I asked about some of his new colleagues, and the way he brushed some of the questions aside made me guess he's encountering more cold shoulders than he expected.
I keep thinking about what Draco said, that he's doomed. Percy's clever--well, clever when he's not being stupid, that is. I wonder if he's starting to suspect that he's in over his head and starting to panic a little. I think that suspicion that someone's been in his flat has scared him.
It's mad; I know it's mad, but I've started wondering whether that Moment that Dad and I always talked about, the exact right moment to ask the exact right question might be coming up for him. Like, I dunno, he's absolutely squandered all the Moments he could have had, but now, when they REALLY have their hooks in him, inexplicably that Moment circles around again.
Do I dare reach out a hand for him as he's about to slide into the abyss? Or will I just get dragged in, too?
I'm writing to both of you because, well, Charlie, you're the one I trust the most who also knew Percy from the beginning, and all the family dynamics. And Rachel, because you know the most about the world he's trying to make his own. And neither of you will bullshite me.
I swear, I won't do anything without running it past the Order first. But tell me honestly what you think: am I merely kidding myself? Even if I'm right and he's panicking, is it much too late and too dangerous to try? Or is there a glimmer of an opportunity here to swing his loyalties?
He nattered on and on and ON about being on the Council, and his Important New Job, which sounds mostly like quill pushing to me. I dunno...usually he spends at least part of our Wednesday lunches trying to impress me, but it felt a little different this time. Like he wasn't thinking so much about impressing me as convincing himself.
I asked about some of his new colleagues, and the way he brushed some of the questions aside made me guess he's encountering more cold shoulders than he expected.
I keep thinking about what Draco said, that he's doomed. Percy's clever--well, clever when he's not being stupid, that is. I wonder if he's starting to suspect that he's in over his head and starting to panic a little. I think that suspicion that someone's been in his flat has scared him.
It's mad; I know it's mad, but I've started wondering whether that Moment that Dad and I always talked about, the exact right moment to ask the exact right question might be coming up for him. Like, I dunno, he's absolutely squandered all the Moments he could have had, but now, when they REALLY have their hooks in him, inexplicably that Moment circles around again.
Do I dare reach out a hand for him as he's about to slide into the abyss? Or will I just get dragged in, too?
I'm writing to both of you because, well, Charlie, you're the one I trust the most who also knew Percy from the beginning, and all the family dynamics. And Rachel, because you know the most about the world he's trying to make his own. And neither of you will bullshite me.
I swear, I won't do anything without running it past the Order first. But tell me honestly what you think: am I merely kidding myself? Even if I'm right and he's panicking, is it much too late and too dangerous to try? Or is there a glimmer of an opportunity here to swing his loyalties?
